Chloe, I still don’t know if I made the right choice letting you go. Part of me is glad you are not uncomfortable or in pain anymore, but a larger part of me feel like I should have given you more time until it really seemed like it was absolutely the right time to go.
You gave me an amazing 15+ year of love, loyalty, kindness even when I wasn’t always as kind and attentive to you as you deserved. I hope I loved you enough. We were together for so long but it feels short now in retrospect. I don’t know how long, if ever, I will feel like I did right by; all I know is I love you and you not following me (even at your advanced age) into every room I go to has left a giant crater in my heart. I love you so deeply. Thank you for getting me through my father’s death, my time in the army, and thank you for being there when I met your mom and seeing the birth of our baby and giving him some memorable laughs this past year. Turtle is still looking for you around the house and in your usual napping areas, but I hope he will be ok.
I love you and I will repay your kindness. Thank you my sweet love.
Rest in peace, baby girl.
Chloe Patel, February 12, 2008 – May 15, 2023
